1) I am lonely
2) I don't have the energy to go anywhere where I won't be lonely
3) I'm bored
4) I'm depressed
5) There's a half-full bottle of Malibu over there and I'm tempted to drink the lot of it.
So not really having a good night after all.
Jess x
Saturday, 5 December 2009
Supermarket Hell
After spending most of the day cowering under my duvet, I realised that I had almost no food left in the house. So I made a pilgrimage to Auchan - I had to get some photos printed off anyway for work on Monday. I didn't realise quite how awful it was going to be... so many people! So hot! So many kids from school shrieking 'Jesseeeeccaaaaa!' and coming over for kisses!
I didn't put my Christmas decorations up last night after all - I couldn't summon the energy. Yes, I still feel like shite. I'm going to try and do it now instead. I've got to get out of this stupid mood. It's been getting worse and worse and I can't cope with it for much longer!
Concerted effort to cheer up starts now.
It's not like anybody else is around to do it after all.
Jess x
I didn't put my Christmas decorations up last night after all - I couldn't summon the energy. Yes, I still feel like shite. I'm going to try and do it now instead. I've got to get out of this stupid mood. It's been getting worse and worse and I can't cope with it for much longer!
Concerted effort to cheer up starts now.
It's not like anybody else is around to do it after all.
Jess x
Friday, 4 December 2009
And again...
My mood has not changed. Nothing much to report. Just that I can barely summon the energy to get to work every day, let alone do anything else. I'm going to put my Christmas decorations up tonight, see if that helps.
Though as I have to clean the flat up first that might not happen.
Everything just feels so exhausting at the moment.
To stop myself from collapsing into a heap under my duvet permanantly I've got RENT on - possibly counterproductive, but at least it's encouraging me to sing along. I suppose that's an improvement. The past couple of days it's been an effort to even open my mouth.
God I'm overdramatic. Shut up, Jessica.
Jess x
Though as I have to clean the flat up first that might not happen.
Everything just feels so exhausting at the moment.
To stop myself from collapsing into a heap under my duvet permanantly I've got RENT on - possibly counterproductive, but at least it's encouraging me to sing along. I suppose that's an improvement. The past couple of days it's been an effort to even open my mouth.
God I'm overdramatic. Shut up, Jessica.
Jess x
Wednesday, 2 December 2009
Guess What
I still feel shit. Everything seems to be falling apart - still.
Even spending the day wandering around the best city in the world didn't help.
Sigh.
This had better get better soon. If not, at least I only have sixteen days left before I go home.
Jess x
Even spending the day wandering around the best city in the world didn't help.
Sigh.
This had better get better soon. If not, at least I only have sixteen days left before I go home.
Jess x
Tuesday, 1 December 2009
On the shit list...
Bouygues Telecom
Orange
SFR
I hate them all.
I've been using the first one to attempt to use my phone and the latter two to attempt to get online. The connection is so dodgy I may cut out at any second... NEITHER of my wifi keys are liking to connect at the moment. I got so frustrated with it yesterday I actually screamed at the computer and threw the SFR key across the flat. Loudest I've shouted (without having a band in front of me) for a good couple of years.
Yep, I'm in a pretty awful mood at the moment. Between every piece of technology I own failing before me (TV and scooter have both had moments of death in the past two days too), Sonata being cancelled and some other bad news that I don't really want to go into, the depression is on its way back. Yes, I'm under my duvet right now. I don't plan to come out.
Thinking about going to Paris again tomorrow just to go shopping - might cheer me up.
Jess x
Orange
SFR
I hate them all.
I've been using the first one to attempt to use my phone and the latter two to attempt to get online. The connection is so dodgy I may cut out at any second... NEITHER of my wifi keys are liking to connect at the moment. I got so frustrated with it yesterday I actually screamed at the computer and threw the SFR key across the flat. Loudest I've shouted (without having a band in front of me) for a good couple of years.
Yep, I'm in a pretty awful mood at the moment. Between every piece of technology I own failing before me (TV and scooter have both had moments of death in the past two days too), Sonata being cancelled and some other bad news that I don't really want to go into, the depression is on its way back. Yes, I'm under my duvet right now. I don't plan to come out.
Thinking about going to Paris again tomorrow just to go shopping - might cheer me up.
Jess x
Sunday, 29 November 2009
GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH
Stupid. Sonata. Arctica!!
Well, no. Let's be kind. Although they have neglected to tell us why the gig I'm supposed to be going to tomorrow night and am already in Paris for has been cancelled, I'm sure it's a good reason. I've heard rumours that Tony has flu, maybe that's it. Whatever.
Anyway.
That's what I'm gaahing about.
I've come all the way to Paris, paid €110 for a hotel room for tonight and tomorrow, planned a detailed skiving strategy for work, and now I find out the gig has been cancelled!!
Not that anyone from the ticket company or the venue has informed me, oh no - I saw a rumour via Twitter and then got it confirmed on the official website. If I hadn't have brought my laptop to Paris with the hope that I could fix the internet, then decided I couldn't and bought a new wireless key, I would be sitting outside that venue tomorrow morning feeling very smug that I was the first to arrive.
Sigh.
I'm so pissed off, but I also hope Tony is ok. I'm going to spend the night watching Undead Indeed and The Wedding Singer (yes, I know, not quite the same...) and eating the many KitKats I bought with me, allegedly to eat in the queue tomorrow *cries*.
Oh well. I suppose this way I don't have to skive off work... though I DO have to get up at 6am to get the train back to Amiens.
...aaargh I'm so pissed off! *stamps off*
Jess x
Well, no. Let's be kind. Although they have neglected to tell us why the gig I'm supposed to be going to tomorrow night and am already in Paris for has been cancelled, I'm sure it's a good reason. I've heard rumours that Tony has flu, maybe that's it. Whatever.
Anyway.
That's what I'm gaahing about.
I've come all the way to Paris, paid €110 for a hotel room for tonight and tomorrow, planned a detailed skiving strategy for work, and now I find out the gig has been cancelled!!
Not that anyone from the ticket company or the venue has informed me, oh no - I saw a rumour via Twitter and then got it confirmed on the official website. If I hadn't have brought my laptop to Paris with the hope that I could fix the internet, then decided I couldn't and bought a new wireless key, I would be sitting outside that venue tomorrow morning feeling very smug that I was the first to arrive.
Sigh.
I'm so pissed off, but I also hope Tony is ok. I'm going to spend the night watching Undead Indeed and The Wedding Singer (yes, I know, not quite the same...) and eating the many KitKats I bought with me, allegedly to eat in the queue tomorrow *cries*.
Oh well. I suppose this way I don't have to skive off work... though I DO have to get up at 6am to get the train back to Amiens.
...aaargh I'm so pissed off! *stamps off*
Jess x
Friday, 27 November 2009
Ahh, Satisfaction
I was going to go up to Abbeville tonight for a night out, but I've decided against it. I want to slob around and eat junk food, today has been absolutely knackering. Two schools, and not only my usual load but also two classes I took entirely by myself while the teacher was off doing something important. One of the classes was a load of crazy eight year olds, it was quite stressful... Thankfully I shut them up by telling them that my friend Jen is a big scary Geordie policewoman and she'd come and throw the lot of them in prison...
I'm sure that's politically correct...
Anyway, I am feeling very satisfied right now. I decided that because I'm being slobby tonight, I'd get me an additive filled, fatty-as-hell McDonalds takeaway for tea.
AND, mwahahaha, the girl at the till got my order mixed up with someone else's and I didn't notice until I got home. Of course I had to eat it all... a very large portion of fries, several chicken nuggets and a double cheeseburger later and I'm a little bit full...
The scary thing is, I'm not completely full... I can definitely see myself cracking open a KitKat in a little while. What else are nights in for?
Jess x
I'm sure that's politically correct...
Anyway, I am feeling very satisfied right now. I decided that because I'm being slobby tonight, I'd get me an additive filled, fatty-as-hell McDonalds takeaway for tea.
AND, mwahahaha, the girl at the till got my order mixed up with someone else's and I didn't notice until I got home. Of course I had to eat it all... a very large portion of fries, several chicken nuggets and a double cheeseburger later and I'm a little bit full...
The scary thing is, I'm not completely full... I can definitely see myself cracking open a KitKat in a little while. What else are nights in for?
Jess x
Thursday, 26 November 2009
*incoherent squealing*
So I downloaded the album 'The Sound Of Nightwish Reborn' about 400 million years ago from iTunes.
But something went wrong.
I was not notified as to the existance of a Poet and the Pendulum demo featuring Marco doing ALL the vocals until HALF AN HOUR AGO.
*speechless*
...well I was speechless after I rolled around shrieking with laughter at Marco's choirboy impression. For the first couple of seconds of him singing I thought he was bagpipes.
Let's just say... thank god there are real choirboys/Anettes in the world.
But also...
Marco's voice in the soft bits.
*melts*
*goes back to being speechless*
Jess x
But something went wrong.
I was not notified as to the existance of a Poet and the Pendulum demo featuring Marco doing ALL the vocals until HALF AN HOUR AGO.
*speechless*
...well I was speechless after I rolled around shrieking with laughter at Marco's choirboy impression. For the first couple of seconds of him singing I thought he was bagpipes.
Let's just say... thank god there are real choirboys/Anettes in the world.
But also...
Marco's voice in the soft bits.
*melts*
*goes back to being speechless*
Jess x
9-8-7-6-counting-the-days SOLO!
I still can't get this song out of my head!! I love it so much, I am SO excited about seeing them next week!
I'm actually getting more and more excited by the SECOND. Tony Kakko is such an incredibly cool guy, even if the Elysée Montmartre breaks both my legs this time I'm going to hang around after the show and try to get a photo with him.
Please let me know everything's all right
Thinking about you though you're out of sight
Every night when I'm turning in my tears find me
Please hurry dear, come back and rescue me
I relate a bit too much to those lyrics.
Jess x
I'm actually getting more and more excited by the SECOND. Tony Kakko is such an incredibly cool guy, even if the Elysée Montmartre breaks both my legs this time I'm going to hang around after the show and try to get a photo with him.
Please let me know everything's all right
Thinking about you though you're out of sight
Every night when I'm turning in my tears find me
Please hurry dear, come back and rescue me
I relate a bit too much to those lyrics.
Jess x
Wednesday, 25 November 2009
Video
Yay, after several hours of battling with the uploader, my video has made it onto Youtube!
In this video you can see Na getting her hand kissed by Liv, not to mention being victimised by Alex's hair... The bruise on my face from where he whipped me with it during Emerald Isle is only getting uglier, I should sue really :p
I can't believe it's less than a week until I see Sonata Arctica and Delain!! I love this gig-going streak.
Right, time to get dressed (yes I know it's nearly 3pm) and go shopping - I'm running out of basic foodstuffs like chicken stock which is seriously impeding my eating at the moment!
Jess x
In this video you can see Na getting her hand kissed by Liv, not to mention being victimised by Alex's hair... The bruise on my face from where he whipped me with it during Emerald Isle is only getting uglier, I should sue really :p
I can't believe it's less than a week until I see Sonata Arctica and Delain!! I love this gig-going streak.
Right, time to get dressed (yes I know it's nearly 3pm) and go shopping - I'm running out of basic foodstuffs like chicken stock which is seriously impeding my eating at the moment!
Jess x
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